BECOMING NOT BECAME

Eight years later and I still struggle with what I might "become," rather than mourn what I "became."

Winter’s Wild Wallop Stalls Spring’s Surprise

Posted on April 15, 2015

At night they wear the tiniest fur coat.

At night they wear the tiniest fur coat.

Lush is the wrong adjective describing this Crocus. Color Control is apt.

Lush is the wrong adjective describing this Crocus. Color Control is apt.

Finally he and his entourage broke camp and left town right before dawn where he staged a cataclysmic display of pig-headedness when he slammed knee-to-chin with a newly developed, Spring-like warm front! This Seasonal Skirmish occurs once every two hundred thirty-nine years when one of the Seasons retires and manages one last stand with a weakening cold front refusing to quietly make way for the warm weather of Spring culminating as the shortest blizzard in history, lasting only 1:02:19.07 or the greatest accumulation of snow at the fastest fall rate, 19.243 feet in only 1:02:19.07!

That night citizens of this small town conceded that Winter had won; broke their backs by blizzards following blizzards; rain storms to melt snow followed by freezing temperatures causing deadly ice; and finally these tortuous patterns now stretching well beyond Easter. These hearty townspeople gave up with a deep sadness empty of hope as they switched off their porch lights.

At that moment Earliest, Director of Spring’s advance team quietly rode in on a warm southernly breeze joined by the pallette of Spring’s colors. And by daybreak Daffodils sprang up like cheerleaders and Tulips plump with sunshine and vibrant, unimaginable colors so spirited as to challenge even the dourest Misanthrope. By dusk an armful of the early beguiling Crocuses, Lily of the Valley, Candytuft, Forget-me-nots, Columbine, Choral Bells, Flaming violets, Forsythia, Periwinkle, and Primrose verified Spring’s arrival.

“They must never give up hope,” Spring whispered to Earliest, “Hope is the firewood of Faith.”

 

Nature believes that "Early Bloomers" inject hope just when Winter overstays its welcome.

Nature believes that “Early Bloomers” inject hope just when Winter overstays its welcome.

Awestruck, I stopped to see a carpet of Cilia.

Awestruck, I stopped to see a carpet of Cilia.

 

 

2014 in review

Posted on January 3, 2015

The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2014 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

The concert hall at the Sydney Opera House holds 2,700 people. This blog was viewed about 19,000 times in 2014. If it were a concert at Sydney Opera House, it would take about 7 sold-out performances for that many people to see it.

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The Simple Difference Between “Fall” and “Autumn”

Posted on November 25, 2014

According to the OED (Oxford English Dictionary, 2013) out of the first thirty definitions of the noun Fall, all but one revolves around an object(s) dropping from great heights including meteors, rocks, and morality.

But the noun Autumn describes the inflaming deciduous trees and shrubs whose normally green leaves are recalibrated into an expression of a Creative and their vow of Life as seasons whether it’s the combustion of golds, reds, oranges, yellows, pink, magenta, black, blue, and brown or our conquering obstacles encountered, we, like our planet’s oft overlooked foliage experience similar change: birth, growth, death, rejuvenation.

The beauty of Autumn goes far beyond walking through mounds of leaves crackling like damp wood in a fireplace, hot apple cider, sweaters, pies, early dawns and even earlier dusks. Like a prepaid Visa card which is reloaded, Autumn returns each year and reloads us with hope and the stalwart conviction that all of Life is a set of Seasons, each with its own distinguishing hallmark which does, strangely enough, echo each of us. 

 

One Creative, One Blossom, One Night

Posted on October 17, 2014

This Rose Represents All Of This Summer's Beauty

The Creative’s Choice To Represent All Of This Summer’s Beauty

Jenni and I joyfully stepped out of the house at twenty past seven for her afternoon walk (kudos to Jenni’s plumbing!).

By that hour it was already dark but for the jostling tree canopy’s flash bulb burst of the city’s ghoulish orange tints.

Our neighborhood Edgewater, enjoys its gentrification’s hushed family sounds which escape their kitchens through screened front doors. Unfortunately we’re squeezed between two struggling, sputtering overlooked or underfunded,  dicey, SRO’s by eager developers looking for quick $400,000 condominium flips and the deceptive veil of unsubstantiated assurance that upscale retail would quickly stake their claims in ground-level build-outs the size of a bird cage. Aldermen often deny developments promising to turn-out now displaced single mothers barely able to keep her family safe in a rent-controlled, 1960’s, poorly planned, troublesome 10-story mid-rise, shoddily built, local drug lords staking claims or disagreements quickly and publicly resolved through an indiscriminate hail of gunfire. This hell hole is still better than the streets.

I guess what better place to plant the most beautiful blossom of our passing summer than in a place wholly absent of beauty. The Creative, the One that irresponsibly plants the most beautiful blossom in the world in one of the most dangerous neighborhoods in the world expresses an unconditonal affection for blossoms and beauty.

He can offer it. What we do with it is, well . . .

NOTE: I snapped this picture in total darkness
and absent of any flash device. I revisited
the sight this afternoon and the blossom
as well as the plant were gone.

Those Damned Little Pills

Posted on October 6, 2014

T.M. Mulligan:

Pills are decoupage; layered, then shellacked, disguising imperfection and madness by prescription, after prescription, after . . .

Originally posted on BECOMING NOT BECAME:

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For the very first time since I swallowed my first 20 mg. tablet of Paxil four-and-a-half years ago, I finally understand why so many people living with mood disorders stop or want to stop ingesting those damned little pills. Those little pills, like slap-happy lovers, amend their  promises of change immediately after they’ve failed you once again.  One more chance?  One more try?  We’re narrowing the field; one day we’ll strike the right chord, just have patience.  Patience?  What patience?  NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) reported that adults who live with serious mental illness die 25 years earlier than other Americans . . .

Imagine yourself standing next to the Greyhound bus to say good-bye to Hope as she takes a window seat, looking at you detached and hopeless2indifferent.  Your worst fear is happening: That Greyhound bus is leaving you utterly Hopeless.  Hopelessness is a loaded…

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Winter Recollection

Posted on September 19, 2014

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Floating from heaven

(perhaps an angel’s first molt),
flakes-first-to-fall
scout the coldest
snowflake1of cold places where
snowflakes might make landfall
and swallow our feet like sand
at the ocean’s edge.

The first few dance like marionettes and,
like children, are delighted and distracted and
saddened, our cold clowns drafted
by the blizzard. More and more
and still more;
An avalanche of grated gray clouds
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now spill like puzzle pieces
fashioning a flourishing,
custardly-creamy, alabastrine tapestry
imbued with tips of crystalline
facets that wink at Ol’ Sol
as his hammer struck
and cleaved and chiseled through miles
images-1of gray Merino wool.
Flakes-of-the-First-Order
avoid the silken strands of Alpaca wool to see its target:
the pudgy pink tongues
of pursuing schoolgirls and their
hope to catch a piece of heaven.

Elaine Stritch Said . . .

Posted on July 23, 2014

Life is a losing battle!  Enjoy it!    –   Mr.  Harold Clurman

 

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