In order to 
be grateful for 
what I will
have I needed 
to let go 
of what I 
once had and 
sit in the
now of nothing 

The beautiful thing 
about remaining curious 
is that you 
get to be 
new over again 
and not knowing 
how to do 
is often exciting 
to be young 
is to be 
curious and amazed 

It’s becoming 
difficult this
quiet saturation 
a drowning 
in satisfaction 
this almost 
nothing now 
normal new
my absolute 
absence from 
everything else 
an empty 
envelope addressed 
to no 
one and 
going nowhere 

Why is it 
that the thumpity 
thump of dryer 
balls and clothes 
make me think 
almost hypnotically so 
about things heretofore 
forgotten as familiar 
almost as though 
a distant heartbeat 
drums come home 

I’d always looked 
outside of myself 
for those things 
never sure why 
until I realized 
that when found 
in someone else 
when they left
they took them
that’s when I 
found them myself 
in plain sight