You know when you
Open that first window
On a spring day
And the breeze blows
In and your home
Is suddenly filled with
Freshness and crisp chill
And you stand there
Sighing smelling and shivering
Closing your cardigan and
Wrapping your arms across
Your chest yeah yeah
You’re like that just
Like that to me
Just tell me why
Don’t hide behind ignorance
Please don’t hide behind
Veiled innocence when you
Know why you did
And please don’t apologize
Please don’t ask forgiveness
Because what you did
Was not a mistake
You chose your answer
To your own question
If you won’t say
Why at least say
What what your question
Was that you answered
That will give me
The why you did
Oh when it starts
Two wholly new things
Recognizable yet usually different
You’re this I’m not
How curious is that
You look the same
As me but different
You’re not a mirror
Yet I see myself
In you or parts
Of me in you
Or parts of me
That I am missing
And want so desperately
So I say things
That you enjoy hearing
That keeps you close
Like those lines thrown
To boats to tie
Them to the shore
This is what it’s
Like when relationships start
When do you know
That something is over
When all that excitement
Of revealing and knowing
All of that newness
Turns into the burden
Of accepting what hurts
It’s not the hurt
Which causes the pain
It’s the accepting it
Accepting something that hurts
Is like being waterboarded
Forced to absorb something
To the point of
Drowning struggling for air
You tell your torturer
Anything to survive this
But it’s not what
They want to hear
And so you’re killed
Though not you exactly
It’s really your love
That’s when it’s over
There’s this in between
A point of equilibrium
A place of comfort
When what is lacking
And what is grand
Are neither less than
Or greater than the
Other meaning that what
Attracts you and what
Detracts you is balanced
By who they are
This equity you uncover
Is when you discover
That you’re in love
HARLAN DIDRICKSON 