Why do we bait
why do we say
half of what we
mean when what we
mean is kept secret
Just what are we
afraid of hearing if
we say what we
do indeed truly mean
I feel like I’m
dancing with shadows and
ghosts having the appearance
of someone but when
I reach out to
touch they poof disappear
or they take on
the coldness of the
wall or the sidewalk
or anything else that
upon which they appear
they become Oh if
only we could be
what we mean and
not just the worm
hiding that steely hook
Month: July 2023
Christmas
Here I sit thinking
there you lay sleeping
in the other room
almost like Christmas I
know that soon I
can unwrap you but
first I need to
get thoughts and words
said here you’re used
to this by now
this cheating of sorts
just me and thoughts
and coffee and cigars
and words selfish pursuits
until at last I
go back to you
JustLaugh
I have often wondered
just what it is
that attracts me to
someone else and what
attracts them to me
it’s such a haphazard
serendipitous thing that even
bet makers in Vegas
turn the other cheek
Maybe the eyes maybe
the smile maybe the
voice or the vibe
I think it’s the
laugh for within a
laugh I hear the
actual sigh of God
Rather
I think that now
after the dust settled
what I truly want
is friends not lovers
I’ve had lovers so
many in fact that
I could field an
entire baseball team and
and now rather than
playing the game I’d
rather sit in the
stands eating popcorn and
hotdogs and cheering those
on who still want
to play to win
Me I’d rather watch
I no longer can
weather the losing and
winning lost its charm
Raw
And so I had
a guy come over
yesterday and my nerves
got the better of
me I did like
him but I don’t
think I’ll see him
again not because I
don’t want to but
because he doesn’t want
to I’m a lot
in person for most
and like an oak
shade most everything beneath
me causing few blooms
I think that he
knew that with me
he would never grow
HARLAN DIDRICKSON 