I remember 
now I 
do remember 
that ache
is back
funny thing 
about aches
either they
stay and
become numb 
or they 
go only 
to return 
either which 
reminds me 
that I 
have loved 
at least 
that once 

Bottom behind 
little tushy
all names 
for what 
one sits
on gets
spanked and 
sometimes soiled 
patted grabbed 
stared at
but my
favorite now 
is my
dear friend’s 
favorite too
because honestly 
who doesn’t 
like a
cute dupa

People it seems 
enjoy talking about 
themselves this makes 
me wonder then 
if mirrors might 
not be most
people’s best friend 
or do reflections 
too get bored
thereby most people 
get themselves dogs
or cats or 
an aquarium filled 
with gurgling fish 
or maybe children 
after all it
seems that people 
need something anything 
else to be 
interested in them 

It’s this 
just this
not that
just this
I’m sure 
not that
it’s never 
will ever 
be that 
for that
is there
and this 
is here
just where
it’s been 
and always 
will be 

It’s always been 
the cello me
the deep haunting 
those low painful 
throaty yowls howling 
the swells that 
disappear beyond ear
and the weeping 
that is silent 
yet longs embrace 
the cello me
seeks its sunlight 
but bathes darkness