I thought maybe 
and then no 
and then no 
again so often 
that the no
became the yes 
funny how denial 
whittles down resolve 
how it carves
its own niche 
into a rock
or a mountain 
or a beach 
or even me

Is here where
it’s supposed to 
go after everything 
here right here 
this is where 
because I thought 
foolishly I know 
that there was 
the forever that
everyone talks about 
but it wasn’t 
isn’t either too
and now whatever 
is left of 
my new forever 
my next forever 
my second my
coda my mulligan 
forever belongs for 
and to you 

Is love supposed 
to be thunder
at its start 
I guess so
telling everyone of 
the impending storm 
fresh love changes 
things much like 
the furies do 
but our love 
this love now 
is quiet full 
of dancing playfulness 
and of pleasure 
it is simply 
the difference between 
rain and snow 

I wish
wished wishing 
all I 
do is
wish but 
wishes are
so much 
better than 
hope for 
with hope 
you likely 
won’t but
with wish
you likely
will and 
with a
kiss too 

So pretty
this piano 
begging me 
come closer 
I have 
a secret
it sings
melodies of
your kiss
that too
rises and 
falls quietly 
in pitch 
and pleasure