It’s not that 
I don’t care 
it’s just that 
it’s this thing 
that’s called caring 
has caused me
my own misery 
I can barely 
swim by myself 
how can I 
swim with you 
a choice then 
to be made
do I go 
under with you 
or swim to 
save only myself 
letting you choose 
one or another 
to the deep
or the shallow 

When I 
know you 
will too
when I 
don’t you 
will never 
when I 
feel you 
will see
when I 
miss you
will be 

Points of reference 
are never others 
but only yourself 
pointing to others
only ever causes
envy jealousy shame 
rather look within 
compare your experiences 
with one another 
evaluate your expectations 
against the same 
let people be 
themselves for they
are on their 
own journey doing 
their very best 
just like you 

And like 
a tire
set to
true my
soul has 
been set
to spin 
without wobble 
with it
to comes
my mind 
freely flying 
down hills 
of thought 
and my
heart to 
hear the 
quietest laughter 
all knowing 
that there
is good 
here in
my stillness 

I don’t expect 
I only accept 
and the acceptance 
that all’s good 
hope too gone 
I don’t look
upon another wondering
for their dreams 
belong to them 
my dreams I
have had and 
they too now 
belong to others 
me I am 
mind soul heart 
write laugh love