I now live 
according to Spirit 
having already lived 
my worldly life 
this life now 
is a privileged
one free from 
the chains of 
chaos and expectations 
I have little 
else but celebration 
serenity and order 
love when comes 
laughter when had
thinking and reflecting 
and writing upon 
the walls of 
the infinite Itself 

Disappear
like that first 
warm winter day
that with it
promises of warmth 

Disappear 
like that last 
cookie in jar
a coveted morsel 
sure to please 

Disappear 
like so many 
others who’ve come 
attracted to light 
which they take 
too when they 

Disappear 

I only wish 
to care at
arms length for 
anything closer than 
that I’m likely 
to like and 
then that like 
will lead to 
very little else 
so let us 
stay like this 
close but not 
close enough to 
ever take root 
for me I 
belong to the 
wind but you 
belong to ground 

An ornament 
something seasonal 
is what 
you have 
now become 
taken out 
dressed up
and viewed
your time 
is limited 
to when 
and after 
back you 
go into 
box and 
under bed 
forgotten until 
next year 
this you
have wanted 
whereas I 
had hoped 
for something 
other more 
like fixture 
than fantasy 

I only 
imagined this 
when that
happened and 
this then 
became my 
new someday 
but even 
then this 
I never 
ever expected 
for this 
back then 
was my
freedom unimaginable