Just how and why 
and maybe even if
you of all people 
turned into a cloud 
I have no idea 
you used to be 
sun and sunny sometimes 
but lately if lately 
is even a thing 
when it’s about sky
something else rolled in 
at first I thought 
maybe it’s a shadow 
but no it lingered 
then I thought eclipse
but no it stayed 
that’s when you became 
a cloud not my
cloud but only yours 
move on along cloud 
because I am sun

Pianos are keys
not just to
themselves but to
me for they
unlock my thoughts 
and my heart 
they are sails
that I hoist 
and head into 
the direction of 
my imagination and 
they also are 
the keys to 
which I hum
myself merrily along

In this absence 
I find comfort 
a quiet kind 
fresh coffee brewing 
kind kettle boiling 
kind in this 
these little things 
I hear music 
made of simple 
whispers in dark 
creak of floor
this absence is 
not my absence 
I’m here where 
nothing else is 

If I’m forced
to remember you 
I’m going to 
remember you the
way that you 
were and not 
as you are 
like the cabin
up north when 
I was a
child bigger than 
life and holding 
my wildest dreams 
and not like 
it is now
some old shanty
with nothing to 
say but sold

Sometimes even 
I feel 
lonely oh
I know 
I’ve heard 
it before 
not you 
yes I 
sometimes I
I do 
having never 
said those 
two words 
to someone 
special before