Like most 
things in
my life 
I’m glad
that I
did it
but I 
don’t want 
to do 
it again 
and isn’t 
that life
at its 
core living 

The pace
of life
a pendulum 
now silently 
swaying behind 
glass case
no longer 
ticking it
glides like 
a skater
on the 
last lake 
of life 

Did I back then 
set fire to everything 
watching it burn unbridled 
did my youthful arrogance 
lay waste time again 
only to rebuild because 
I had nothing better 
to do with life 
so many mulligans too
many resets and do-overs 
scratches tears and erosion 
that my life resembled 
the homework of some 
child unwilling to learn 

I never know 
until I do 
I used to 
I once thought 
maybe it’s arrogance 
of my youth 
but now as
the sun has 
begun to set
I am realizing 
that despite bravado 
I never really 
ever knew anything 
but this ignorance 
which now finally 
makes me happy 

Don’t follow 
me I’ve 
never been 
before I’m
just first
in line
maybe you 
do and 
if not 
then let
us go 
ahead together