Dodged a bullet 
dipped toes in
at first tickling
but then chaos
began to nip
maybe to taste 
and before I 
knew it drama 
leapt for me 
scurrying back I
fell feeling the 
tentacles and tension 
pulling me back 
then I awoke 
in a sweat
that only despair 
really ever knows 

I have found 
It’s just easier 
picking up pieces 
putting them together 
better this time 
but once broken 
forever weak and 
words find their 
way into cracks 
and pry apart 
even my strongest 
sheer will resolve 
leaving me once 
more in pieces 

Once when I 
was a bush
I wished for 
this very thing 
to happen upon 
rather than under 
but now having 
had the roll
I’ve ended alone 
caught on fence
a few feet 
from the horizon 

Checked my pockets 
looked under bed
even inside shoes
nary to be 
even retraced steps 
out in garden 
thinking that I’d
dropped it there 
not a trace 
where are you 
my little inspiration 
where’s your laughter 
and your eyes 
what was once 
a rain forest 
with its rainbow 
is now just 
an arid landscape 
dry and crumbling 

We can 
all use
more kindness 
not getting 
but given 
positive energy 
radiates it
attracts and
it defies 
it doesn’t 
defend or
defile but 
it defines 
be different