And like fall
I have changed 
gone is green 
too much life
I have lived 
now onto colors 
blazing and intense 
not to last 
for winter comes 
and then spring 
and back we
are and go 
to the beginning 

I am not 
broken or bruised 
or used and 
just slightly damaged
those dings and 
dents and debris 
healed long ago 
what I am 
though is happy
peaceful and content 
if I had 
just one wish 
I’d make it 
this that you 
make it through 
to this so
we might sit
and start fresh 
like little loaves 
on a windowsill 

We say
we think 
when we
don’t really 
we feel 
and like 
all things 
blind we
never know 
until our 
minds eye 
slowly remembers

Maybe I’m wrong 
maybe everything is
what everyone says 
and I keep 
trying to force 
forget and forgive 
that a square 
peg won’t fit
into round holes 
that maybe I’m
just the outlier
that one out
of the box 
toy that won’t 
play with others 
and that maybe 
one day someone 
with an imagination 
will find me 
and wonder and 
then I’ll fit

Am I cold
because I don’t 
because I’d rather 
that you did
because I did
mine and I 
don’t want yours
unless and until 
you finally do 
I’m going to 
stay over here 
on this side 
of the fence 
I’ll run along 
side of you 
but I won’t 
let you in