I have often wondered
just what it is
that attracts me to
someone else and what
attracts them to me
it’s such a haphazard
serendipitous thing that even
bet makers in Vegas
turn the other cheek
Maybe the eyes maybe
the smile maybe the
voice or the vibe
I think it’s the
laugh for within a
laugh I hear the
actual sigh of God
Category: Gay
Rather
I think that now
after the dust settled
what I truly want
is friends not lovers
I’ve had lovers so
many in fact that
I could field an
entire baseball team and
and now rather than
playing the game I’d
rather sit in the
stands eating popcorn and
hotdogs and cheering those
on who still want
to play to win
Me I’d rather watch
I no longer can
weather the losing and
winning lost its charm
Raw
And so I had
a guy come over
yesterday and my nerves
got the better of
me I did like
him but I don’t
think I’ll see him
again not because I
don’t want to but
because he doesn’t want
to I’m a lot
in person for most
and like an oak
shade most everything beneath
me causing few blooms
I think that he
knew that with me
he would never grow
Maybe? (for Arturo)
I admit that I
have been drinking but
I
have
met a guy
I
put
him through paces
that
would have rattled
but
him no
he stood
up and now after
I’m
left to
wonder whether this
or anyone really is
was oh fuck really is
was
a mirage
YouThere
As I sit and
smoke my cigar watching
the sunrise I wonder
if this is genuinely
all that there is
me a cigar and
a sunrise and then
I remember that I
left you there upstairs
HARLAN DIDRICKSON 