I have found that
the part of my
heart that I give
to friends is different
than the part I
give to lovers the
part that I give
to lovers is attached
to my eyes and
my mouth and the
part of my heart
that I give to
friends is connected to
my ears and arms
And sometimes only sometimes
it all just comes
beautifully and wantonly together
and I completely disappear
Category: Gay
ThreeHalfSisters
Peace calm and serenity
like three half sisters
avoid most of us
until late in life
late in life when
deep sighs and memories
replace adventures and battle
cries things to prove
and places to go
these three half sisters
appear from the mist
of our most broken
never have been’s and
never ever will be’s
the three half sisters
only ever carry mirrors
reflecting to only us
what all we did
and what we didn’t
and what there is
now left to do
Good
Life lived experience gained
all is only good
imagine that all being
good imagine if we
accepted that everything no
matter its outcome is
good
Imagine what our lives
could be like imagine
good just as everything
failure good success good
broken hearts good too
What if all is
too good to imagine
good
Again
I won’t do that
again after having just
done it again again
what is it about
again what gripping hold
does again have on
me that when again
pops its head up
I look and consider
when I should look
away run the other
direction shield my eyes
from Medusa’s curiosity dead
for after again comes
the bitter gagging guilt
and my now well
known and often recited
and no longer believed
that I will never
but always will do
that ever again again
Hookup
Suddenly things became important
what was wasn’t enough
there was a need
to know more now
names ages and jobs
suddenly all became relevant
making me wonder why
why now not just
now but right now
when before before when
desires flame was ignited
by fantasy and expectation
it never even mattered
now maybe I thought
that behind his eyes
which looked into mine
we might be thinking
there might be something
more than this hour
this one small hour
one small insignificant hour
HARLAN DIDRICKSON 