He lays sleeping 
a different sleep 
now after the 
battles of past
a warriors sleep 
a weary sleep 
a deep sleep 
where even the 
soul slumbers and 
the heart dreams 
of what’s next 
but the body 
says but let’s 
all just rest
peacefully for now 

When you need 
someone you’ll take 
anyone when you 
want someone well 
then that’s different 
wanting affords perspective 
you might look 
for something that 
fits or maybe 
something that doesn’t 
but you know 
you always know 
who won’t work 
and who might 
which is different 
from a one 
size fits all
off of the 
sales final rack

I don’t feel 
anything I thought 
that I would 
certain of it
but I don’t 
it’s very strange 
because of all 
of the men
who I thought
no was certain 
sure I do
in some way 
but not the 
big way and 
I simply don’t 
and now what 
start yet again 
I think not 
I think that 
my time for 
love has passed 

He knows that 
I do this 
write in bed
early as he 
dreams and his 
breathing gives pace 
to these words 
as though each
of us holds
the opposite handles
of a long 
saw sizzing and 
sazzing the log
that nighttime is 

Laying in bed 
next to someone 
who I knew
as boyfriend then 
lover now friend 
life for us 
seemed to go 
backwards as if
what we started 
as kept diminishing 
or even perhaps 
aging even love 
when having been 
is always have 
it just changes
colors darkens mellows 
I think that
I prefer this 
no I do