Christmas

Here I sit thinking 
there you lay sleeping
in the other room
almost like Christmas I
know that soon I
can unwrap you but
first I need to
get thoughts and words
said here you’re used
to this by now
this cheating of sorts
just me and thoughts
and coffee and cigars
and words selfish pursuits
until at last I
go back to you

JustLaugh

I have often wondered 
just what it is
that attracts me to
someone else and what
attracts them to me
it’s such a haphazard
serendipitous thing that even
bet makers in Vegas
turn the other cheek
Maybe the eyes maybe
the smile maybe the
voice or the vibe
I think it’s the
laugh for within a
laugh I hear the
actual sigh of God

Rather

I think that now 
after the dust settled
what I truly want
is friends not lovers
I’ve had lovers so
many in fact that
I could field an
entire baseball team and
and now rather than
playing the game I’d
rather sit in the
stands eating popcorn and
hotdogs and cheering those
on who still want
to play to win
Me I’d rather watch
I no longer can
weather the losing and
winning lost its charm

PartsOfHearts

I have found that 
the part of my
heart that I give
to friends is different
than the part I
give to lovers the
part that I give
to lovers is attached
to my eyes and
my mouth and the
part of my heart
that I give to
friends is connected to
my ears and arms
And sometimes only sometimes
it all just comes
beautifully and wantonly together
and I completely disappear

ThreeHalfSisters

Peace calm and serenity 
like three half sisters
avoid most of us
until late in life
late in life when
deep sighs and memories
replace adventures and battle
cries things to prove
and places to go
these three half sisters
appear from the mist
of our most broken
never have been’s and
never ever will be’s
the three half sisters
only ever carry mirrors
reflecting to only us
what all we did
and what we didn’t
and what there is
now left to do