He has
eyes
the size
of compacts
and the color
of clover

I watched
him undress
last night
peeling his
shirt exposing
a flat stomach
pulling down
his briefs
exposing
strong concave
buttocks

but it’s
his smile
that arouses
me

 

It’s late

but I’m
not tired

I have
someone
coming over
later

a promise
he made
to have me
feel better

I’m nervous
because no
man
has been able
to scratch
the itch
I have
inside

this burrowing
burning need
deep in my
belly
hurts
like a hot
match

is he
my
extinguisher

I fell
in love
today

again today

with Juan

his brown
eyes
set between
pecan shaped
lids

his smile is
broad and
warm
and reminds
me of how
I kissed him

So many
memories
fly by like
Canadian Geese

I reach out
to grab them
but Juan’s
thousands
of miles
away

We went
to dine
at a beachside
café
rain erupted
from black clouds
David wore
a raincoat
he looked like
a scout
we walked
from the
beachside café
to a bar
arm in arm
in rain
and wind

He’s enterprising
working
as a server
in a chic burger
joint in Waikiki
knees and feet
ache he says
been on them
for eight hours
like marching
marines
or a date
with new shoes
I rub them
sometimes
rubbing the ache
out substituting
tenderness

I’m attracted
to him moth
to light I
buzz around
him excited
laughing
like a nervous
teenager
to the football
captain
like the moth
I can’t help
but circle
around
afraid of the light
yet mesmerized
by its danger