I just knew
Which is why
I didn’t want
I didn’t want
To eventually know
Because I knew
That this knowing
Would be worse
Than never knowing
And sometimes wondering
Is often adequate
Wondering fuels wanting
Whereas knowing only
Ignites the needing
And once needing
Something knowing and
Wondering and wanting
Aren’t ever enough
I know this
Because I have
Known this before
So many times
Before feeling this
The feeling of
Missing something removed
Hometowns and lovers
Are the same
Places where one
Finds such comfort
And fond memories
Of silly adventures
And intimate discovery
Of first times
And last times
And the worst
Times of all
Those times of
Good byes and
See you soons
Hometowns and lovers
I miss you
Both so much
Your body
Is just
The sweetener
In the
Coffee that
You are
And so I
Showed you things
Let you feel
Some touch some
I explained things
Answered your questions
And you grew
You began thinking
Anticipating and handling
You began wanting
Instead of needing
You learned choice
Instead of accept
It’s not me
It’s only ever
Been about you
I’m the waiter
Serving you your
World one course
At a time
And it happened
Now it’s over
Existing in memory
Interesting it is
That while memory
Exists in feelings
It does not
Exist in activities
I do remember
That we did
This and that
But the sensations
That I felt
Have completely disappeared
So rather than
Remembering all those
I will remember
You and I
During that one
Mid March weekend
In Hampton Virginia
HARLAN DIDRICKSON 