ChoosingAlone

On a prairie

As vast as

An ocean we

Sprout and struggle

Reaching up higher

Lavender and peony

Daisy and daffodil

Sunning like cats

On a windowsill

Each of us

Magnificently alone here

Until invisible vines

Tickle tender torsos

These invasive lovers

These relationships that

Slowly wind their

Way upward eventually

Becoming so entwined

That to pluck

One you pluck

The other too

But not me

I continue higher

Above the rest

Preferring to be

The best the

Tallest robust me

Chosen for beauty

And not simply

Because I’m here

As has happened

To my friends

ThereYouAre (to Nick)

And now I

Know why I

Dream of you

Beneath the years

Of hating you

Are the hours

Of missing you

But while awake

All I think

About is why

Did we end

But while asleep

All I dream

About is how

We ever ended

Yes you are

My waking nightmare

As you are

My nighttime love

NotAMachine

I feel I

Fear too much

Not me feeling

But them not

Living among machines

Moving about doing

What they were

Built to do

I sit silently

And wonder what

Life is like

For these machines

That scurry about

Just barely thinking

The things that

Someone else thought

When making them

I feel I

Fear too much

Thinking for myself

While sitting here

It’sSnowing

Snow has arrived

Like a million

Tiny white punch

Lines gathering one

Atop the other

Creating a comedy

Which tickles me

Like fingers moving

Across my ribs

Like meeting someone

New yet vaguely

Familiar thinking that

Someone like him

Had brought joy

To me once

And now wondering

And even hoping

If just a

Little bit that

Like a toboggan

We’ll sit slide

And glide over

Life’s hills eventually

Landing somewhere in

A pile of

Snow laughing together

Migrating

It’s time time

To go I

Hear the winds

Of flight swirling

Around me almost

Lifting prompting me

To come go

Somewhere anywhere else

Remain I do

Hopeful hopefully hopeful

That you’ll change

Change you don’t

So change I

Must leaving you

And all of

This behind me

I’m a migrating

Bird letting the

Winds take me

To someplace else

Any place else

Than right here