A train moans
deep in disbelief 
far off unseen 
its bleat calling 
and causing alarm 
I am coming
I can’t stop 
like some change
to my life 
that was set
into motion long 
ago by decision 
and finally announced 
dark and mysterious 
baggage hitched behind 

I remember you 
like a punchline 
I didn’t quite 
get that took
me a back
not a punch
below the belt 
like a bump 
around a blind 
corner causing me 
to become befuddled 
off my game 
and there it
was that you 
then saw me 
as more me
than I’d ever 
let anyone see
me the punchline 
of your joke 

It isn’t grand
this this isn’t 
nor was it
ever or even 
meant to be 
quiet surely for 
such things are
but it’s in
the very nature 
of silence do 
we hear the 
loudest of thunder 
heralding the strongest 
change out there 
on the horizon 

Finding myself having 
never been lost
to others this 
journey has been 
heartbreaking and heart
aching but it’s 
been all mine 
funny thing is 
that around others 
we frequently lose 
ourselves and the 
only way to 
recover what’s lost 
is by finding 
it in the 
wilderness of our 
very own backyards