It is 
now only 
now only 
ever now
when I 
dip into 
and pull 
no coax
and seduce 
these feelings 
to float
to form 
splash and 
play about 
until they 
once again 
disappear into 
the depths 
leaving me 
to wonder 
when if
ever again 

The memory
of you 
stays afloat 
like a
far off 
buoy bobbing
about in
the sea
of me

A man 
is only 
his word
be it
hello goodbye 
or maybe 

a man
respects another 
man’s word
despite its
happiness pain 
or pause 

a man
only loves 
those who 
do cherish
love like 
his word

I will 
never not 
but if
I have 
the chance 
to again 
I would 
for when
I had 
not then
I didn’t 
know now 
and this 
is nothing 

Let us
we think 
happy thoughts 
and toast
to making 
many more 
in times 
to come 
for we
are us
not I
never me