I don’t 
even know 
anymore everything 
I did
I don’t 
and I 
wonder now 
if I 
ever did 
it’s like 
this life
keeps tapping 
me on
shoulder and 
when turning 
to see
it runs
behind again 
and me
a toy
top spinning 
one day
I suppose 
I’ll catch 
it and 
stop this 
dizzying dance
and see
what all 
this has 
been about 

Finally the thaw
after a long
harsh isolating winter
one of fury
and bitter winds
which howled and 
danced screaming spells
and whistling incantations 
meant to conjure 
up lost demons 
now the thaw
some pitter patter 
of long awaited 
life dripping from 
long ago fallen 
snow gathered heaved
and heaped that
begins to drip
into the cistern 
turning this darkness 
into its own 
kind of light 

I live 
a quiet 
simple and 
private life 
preferring to 
remember than
to make 
for making 
requires effort 
whereas remembering 
nary none 

Today clouds
mirror you 
laying on
the beach
flat beneath 
they reflect 
the land
and you 
flat beneath 
absorbing same 
but both 
billowing above 
as they 
rise higher 
to infinity 

And then Bach
as you turned 
and without looking 
laid hand upon 
my chest and 
the cellos of 
my heart began 
moaning and without 
seeing my heart 
whispered to yours 

that I will 
love you just 
like this until 
forever does pass
into forever more 
and forever more 
beyond even that