Used to 
using you 
as my
first cup
I now
reach for 
my coffee 
piping hot 
creamy and 
delicately sweet 
it’s the 
least having 
lost my 
forever best 

I do
live singly
having had 
and having 
loved before 
I don’t 
see aloneness 
as my
penance but 
my absolution 
for love 
is never 
a sin 
only ever 
a blessing 

To leave 
is easier 
than staying 
I’m cowardly 
running from 
not to 
watching the 
end unfold 
breaks heart
me I
must go 
on for 
staying requires
grit and 
not patience 
but my
future does

So much
so much 
of this 
makes me 
oh so 
much so
so much 
that I 
stop and 
do remember 
remember when 
and who
and where 
never why
for why
has no 
place in 
so much