You simply 
cannot find 
something if
you don’t 
know what 
it is 
therefore take 
the time 
to discover 
and decide 
for not
then everything 
be it
sex love 
or relationship 
becomes disposable 
a castoff
something not 
someone of
little worth 
and even 
less value 

It is 
now only 
now only 
ever now
when I 
dip into 
and pull 
no coax
and seduce 
these feelings 
to float
to form 
splash and 
play about 
until they 
once again 
disappear into 
the depths 
leaving me 
to wonder 
when if
ever again 

The memory
of you 
stays afloat 
like a
far off 
buoy bobbing
about in
the sea
of me

A man 
is only 
his word
be it
hello goodbye 
or maybe 

a man
respects another 
man’s word
despite its
happiness pain 
or pause 

a man
only loves 
those who 
do cherish
love like 
his word

I will 
never not 
but if
I have 
the chance 
to again 
I would 
for when
I had 
not then
I didn’t 
know now 
and this 
is nothing