I never 
had children 
never had 
the chance 
I don’t 
garden either 
never had 
the thumb
and now 
upon reflection 
these are 
probably why 
I enjoy 
my relationship 
with you 
because I 
finally have 
the opportunity 
to watch 
something bloom

Chaos is easy 
and it’s entertaining 
also very exciting 
it makes life 
worth living right 
for a while 
chaos is inevitable 
it’s also unsustainable 
chaos will eventually 
find its order 
even madness has 
its own order 
they are twins 
after all chaos 
and order though 
not identical they 
are definitely familial 
as familial as 
night and day 
love and hate
life and death 

I thought maybe 
and then no 
and then no 
again so often 
that the no
became the yes 
funny how denial 
whittles down resolve 
how it carves
its own niche 
into a rock
or a mountain 
or a beach 
or even me

Is here where
it’s supposed to 
go after everything 
here right here 
this is where 
because I thought 
foolishly I know 
that there was 
the forever that
everyone talks about 
but it wasn’t 
isn’t either too
and now whatever 
is left of 
my new forever 
my next forever 
my second my
coda my mulligan 
forever belongs for 
and to you 

Is love supposed 
to be thunder
at its start 
I guess so
telling everyone of 
the impending storm 
fresh love changes 
things much like 
the furies do 
but our love 
this love now 
is quiet full 
of dancing playfulness 
and of pleasure 
it is simply 
the difference between 
rain and snow