War

And like some soldier 
in some far off 
field I’m safe I’ve 
laid down my arms 
and removed my helmet 
the war is over 
and now that war
rages deep inside me 
and the carnage that 
I have seen inflicted 
and felt makes itself 
known in my sobs
and wails wondering why 
I went to war
it never ends war
best to never start