Before then when things
were bad I looked
for and reached out
to men as a
form of selfish distraction
I used them in
the name of desire
and affection and love
but it wasn’t love
I wanted their fingers
and only their fingers
to plug the many
holes in my heart
that had been eaten
away by a moth
who had been there
far too long and
way way too comfortable
here’s the funny thing
about wounds that I
know now the more
that you touch them
with fingers and such
the longer they remain
open the better way
to heal a wound
is by leaving it
alone and forget about
it it’ll heal all
by itself in time
just as mine has
Category: Love
BedBoxMe
I sleep alone
in a bed
made for two
like tea for
two yet drank
only by one
if my bed
were a box
sent to someone
whatever was inside
would be broken
having moved about
with no comfort
well I guess
that it is
so am I
HimHimMyHim
I can see him
here there and everywhere
that I’ve ever been
but when I approach
he quietly slips away
my someone into a
sea of someone else’s
leaving me to search
excuse me sir I’m
sorry sir didn’t mean
to disturb you sir
I’ve never found that
twinkle of surprised recognition
not once never ever
and now I’ve stopped
recognizing the one face
in almost every crowd
content in the knowledge
that when not if
he will see me
Frame
The apps have
pics of people
men and women
and that’s it
just pics and
pics and more
pics of strangers
no more important
than those found
in frames ready
for purchase in
most novelty stores
one rarely buys
the frame for
the pic one
buys the frame
for the pic
you put inside
we’re all frames
framing those pics
dear to us
and the strangers
first to go
Course
It takes effort
to turn even
the smallest boat
imagine yourself as
that a boat
gliding gently through
sometimes calm waters
sometimes greater swells
it takes time
to change course
but more importantly
it takes discipline
if you want
change in life
do one of
two simple things
remove the oars
and simply drift
you’ll get somewhere
not by choice
but by chance
or dig deeper
and shoulder down
taking your aim
at exactly where
and then the
when will come
be your own
discipline of course
