I should be dead.
No kidding, I should be dead.
For six years I consumed a lethal cocktail muddled together on a daily basis. My starters included: my all-star pitcher, the stimulant dextro-amphetamine aka Adderall; my opioid triple play Oxycodone, Hydrocodone, and Fentanyl; at clean-up, slugger benzodiazepine aka Clonazepam; and my DH, cyclobenzaprine aka Flexeril.
it wasn’t that I was just taking them. I was prescribed copious amounts. Mind-boggling quantities! And not by back-alley abortionists. But by my normal western medicine choo-choo train that could: PCP to PharmaD. to me. The following quantities are accurate. All these drugs listed were prescribed by doctors. I never sought out street drugs!
And I’ve stopped taking all of them. No more. None. Ever again; ever!
These drugs have ripped my life open like the snarling, snapping, 
and bloody teeth of street dogs fighting over a bloodied, yowling cat. At first, they were all seductive, like a harem of pretty pink and yellow and blue and round and oblong and square pills. But as the foot march drew me farther and farther and farther afield, I lost all semblance of objectivity.
So here we go:
- DRUG DAILY DOSAGE MONTHLY DOSAGE
Adderall 300 mg. 9,000 mg.
Oxycodone 150 mg. 1,800 mg.
Fentanyl 200 mcg/hr 6,000 mcg/hr
Hydrocone 150 mg. 1,800 mg.
Clonazepam 3 mg. 90 mg.
Flexiril 30 mg. 900 mg.
- So in six years here’s what I consumed:
Adderall 540,000 mg.
Oxycodone 10,800 mg
Fentanyl 1,200 mcg/hr
Hydrodone 900 mg.
Clonazepam 540 mg.
Flexiril 5,400 mgs.
To give you an idea of how much 540,000 mg. of Adderall is in pounds, it’s 1.2 pounds!
See, I should be dead.
HARLAN DIDRICKSON 