I knew it was coming, this day.
Like those on this side of the canyon watching the night sky grow from a dark, almost imperceptible henna to tangerine to apricot. They knew it was coming, this night.
Tonight at long last I’ve long lost everything I once valued: love and lovers; mind and mindfulness; mother and brother.
Tonight I’m staring right into an abyss whose depth is wholly uncertain.
And yet I’m surprisingly happy. I awoke this morning like Scrooge, happy and laughing and realizing that my life has turned the corner.
Here is what I discovered: My whole life has been dedicated to making others happy. In a generous way.
But here’s the one piece I never understood until today: If I can do everything I can to help those around me be happy, I’ll be surrounded by happy people and what a happy life I’ll have.