Treatise

I lived an unsustainable 
life partly because I 
could and partly because 
I couldn’t face the 
reality that the first 
fifty or so years 
of my life had 
become which was nothing 
what’s one supposed to 
do when one wakes
up one morning and 
everything that’s known before 
is simply absolutely gone 
where do angels start
or even demons sent
to earth to bless 
or haunt and destroy 
so I set about 
laying waste to everything 
plowing my way through 
men and life without 
so much as a 
glance back and lived
a life of laughing 
chaos until that day 
when I learned not 
of my humanity oh
no for I wanted 
none of that but 
of my humility and 
that was when I 
realized how incredibly insignificant 
and unimportant and unnecessary 
I am to the 
world and the abject 
dissolution and destruction that 
had happened to me 
was happening because of 
me and it was 
then and there and 
not one moment sooner 
I knew I was 
no better than bugs