Caring

It’s not that 
I don’t care 
it’s just that 
it’s this thing 
that’s called caring 
has caused me
my own misery 
I can barely 
swim by myself 
how can I 
swim with you 
a choice then 
to be made
do I go 
under with you 
or swim to 
save only myself 
letting you choose 
one or another 
to the deep
or the shallow