Forgiveness

I have made
so many mistakes 
so so many 
and the sadness 
with which I
am now left
is crippling but 
too the forgiveness 
not just from 
others but myself 
too for myself 
of myself forgiveness 
starts somewhere usually 
from the outside 
first for others 
are most forgiving 
but the inside 
is where forgiveness 
at last roots 
giving life there
finally another chance