WaitWant

I have stepped 
off of and 
away from the 
spinning contraption at
first dizzy trying 
to find focus 
like ballerinas after 
their first tries
at the pirouette 
falling to knees 
maybe sitting or
even lying down 
watching as life
and clouds rush 
past like shoppers 
on sale day
certain of need
but want I
have discovered comes
later after the 
hordes have had 
their selfish fills
and their aftermath 
provides the pause 
needed for me
to discover want