Time

It’s been what 
now eight years 
since the ignition 
that one single 
silly solitary moment 
when the world 
mine at least 
just simply disappeared 
no bang no 
explosion no gnashing 
of teeth just 
quiet as though 
God Himself covered 
my ears saying 
no boy you 
don’t need to 
hear this end
and off I 
went looking looking
so much looking 
for what remained 
and what I 
found hadn’t been 
what I lost
oh no it
wasn’t even that 
what I found 
was the me
that never was