Now

I think it’s 
now not then
for then I 
wouldn’t have known 
there was this 
and this missing 
is almost worse
than having never 
for in nothing 
there isn’t anything 
not a pick
mark or shovel 
of turned soil 
but in this 
there’s a rut
which I travel 
to and fro 
round and round 
again and always 
coming back here