Self

I sometimes think 
I’ve lived backwards 
making others happiness 
my first priority 
and pushing myself 
further and further 
down and away 
almost to the 
point of beyond 
and then life
happened hit me 
in the jaw 
waking me up 
making me think 
what the hell
am I doing 
letting myself live 
those other lives 
when it’s me
and it’s mine 
that I should 
be living for