HaveIHaveYou

Have I become sour
or has the world 
itself curdled turned into 
some gloppy chunky mess
having once been trustworthy 
and now cautiously suspicious 
do I listen to 
others intently and curiously 
or do I listen 
like a weary prosecutor 
waiting for the lie
do I talk myself 
out of others anticipating 
becoming collateral damage in
the folly of their 
lives I do remember 
being years ago defiant 
but lately I crouch 
down covering my ears 
waiting for the explosion 
which is surely coming