AlwaysDoes

I didn’t think I 
was but I am 
I thought by thinking 
that I wasn’t then 
I really wasn’t but 
when in fact and 
in reality I am 
I am looking for 
love again but having 
looked for it before 
and it not being 
true my looking is 
now shielded as though 
I haven’t yet discovered 
the bomb but know
it’s there so I’m 
already covering my eyes 
Oh please don’t let 
it hurt this time 
for my body now 
is less of me 
and more the shrapnel 
I’ve absorbed by way
of the previous explosions