Really

I guess I don’t 
I thought I did 
I thought I did 
You must believe me 
Maybe it went sideways 
Just like a car 
Hitting some black ice 
And what was there
In front of me 
Is now over there 
And silently passing by 
Almost like a dream 
Maybe I drank too 
Much of you and 
I realized with regret 
That all of this 
Was just too good 
To be really real 
And like one who 
Stepped foot into Heaven 
Decided I’m not worthy 
And it’s back to 
Hell for someone who’s 
As damned as me